todae woke up early to cherograph cheerlead moves. its driving me mad arrggh!!! almost going bonkers. prayed to god to give me anoiting to lead me throught this. hope it is really going to be a good cheer! went for sheperds class, ting ting and david were teaching. alvin, zheng kai and some of david's ppl were ther. but david was late. haha. they told us tat david once told them Puntuality is important. haha. so while we were waiting, we played"wads the time now mr wolf?" its a childhood game. but playing it again in our teens is quite interesting too. lessons started. ting ting started first while david went to photocopy his note for us. before he started, we had a break. those who arrived early took the notes , the others, who are late, had to copy the complicated chapters of the notes into their sermon book! haha poor ting. as david went on he wrote yi qing er chu on the board. but it turned out to be yi qing er zhu. translated into eng is one green two pigs! haha. but i was so encouraged by davids teaching. really. it really inspired me alot. from how alvin matured n how his group growed, how they overcame difficulties... wow. it was a neck breaking of small testimonies. small but impactful. it really leads me back to god. the little little things he does. i can se it now. its really time for FNW3 to grow. i dun care wad we have in our way. satans bad plan in mind our jesus's testing ahead. all i wanna do is to win souls for the kingdom of god!, im really really encouraged by wad david taught us today. i want to bring in the harvest! im ready god! bring it on!

the wilful days are over.. all in just a few hours. in a matter of minutes, we were changed. seconds later we were up and performing. the clap of the audience was heard when we bowed. 10 minutes ago, we were shaking hands with mr albert, proudly receiving the booklet from his hand. and now, everything is over. walking down the staircase, hearing ppl saying "keep in touch", "friends forever"... im sure they oso know it themselves that its sure theres gonna be one day when we will stop talking to one another, we will have no time to talk to one another, we will..... secondary skool to me is jus like changing an enviroment. maybe im jus not emotional enough to understand how they feel. things are gonna change. diff friends, diff topics, diff mindset, diff angle of perception. all u have to do is to adapt. we are going to change. no doubt. im jus telling ppl the truth here. there is no forever. it only happens in fairytales. my results had 2 impact on ppl round me. ppl in skool saying i had too MUCH church actitvities. u see they use the word much. not many. but i noe im doing the right thing. persevering on in what i think is right. they kept blaming me. y i had to join tat activity, why i had to do tis, why i had to do that. im fed up. i dun care. even if i fail, i dun care. even if i go sembawang sec, i dun care. cause no matter wad i get, they blame. blame me. on the other side, ppl were saying not bad. on the other side, were encouraging friends. friends tat did not care what results i got, friends tat know when im sad, what i was feeling. they are to be mentioned. of course. church friends. my best friends. those who kept the fire burning in me. not others who throw buckets of water into my passionatly burning flames. i would hate them. ppl round me getting better grades than i, all surrounded by ppl praising them. fake. going to cherograph the cheerleading for camp later. dun have the feeling to do it. i lost the groove, lost energy, lost the mind to think. i just never thought the last day in skool will end up like tat. HATE tis day!

hi ppl! im back! haha gone for so long, finally back le... today went for sheperding class, had fever n sore throat. zinc n some others helped me to pray aft the meeting. feeling much more beter now! no more sore throat le, no more fever le, jus very cham de headache.. haha better than fever lahz.. reached home at around 3 plus, almost going to faint. changed my jeans into shorts than sleep until 8 plus.. wow 4hrs sleep! now 10 plus le, listening to mighty to save for repeatedly the seventh time. im just so addicted to it! he's mighty to save! he rose n conquered the grave... wow. i love the lyrics, love the song, love the melody, love god! last sat, yi hui converted! yess! had sheperding class todae, but qiyin didnt go.. cant call through her phone.. aniwaez, on the way home wif reb, we chatted alot of things, chat from cg stuff to kunming.. oh, i just love that place! chatted wif suwanie.. happy that she is more open to me, like telling me what happenings in her life.. :) hehe. tomorrow hav sharing. pray to god for good ppl! still looking forward to BREAKTHROUGH!

sorry for not posting for so long... haha. had debating in class today. its about-should parents stop children from using the comp? oh, im sure everyone would say no. me too of course.3hrs training or dance today. wow! was going to whack le. went home, first thing, bathe. i smelled like a mad woman jus walked out of the cow shed. whatever. then once i finally washed the stank off me, i wanted to go to the kitchen to cook for myself, but when i reached for the refrigerator, i saw a "huge" cricket that scared the daylights out of me. haha. i admit im timid. ok, so no choice, go out to buy food. when i came back, my sis told me that the chalet my xiao gu(aunt) is holding, is on 11,12 n 13 of nov! so "SWEET" of her to do that. im sure going to camp, but the chalet is for sending my cousin off to NS. so sad not to see him for the nxt 2 years...ok. yar, aniwaez.. i love the hiphop dance! our instructor is WOW! haha. not idolizing her. lat sat, actually a contact is coming wan, but at last didnt come... sad... :'( but nvm! nxt week she coming! haha n maybe bringing a few more! yes! im encouraged by gods word again n again!

hmm... its going to be an intresting week. had intensive dance training and, i havent bought the clothes for hip hop yet!!omg. yar, had sheperdings n sheperdings, evaxings by evaxings. yar, but theres one thing i think that god has really blessed me is that my sheep finally opend up to me aft all my prayers! yes1 n i had 3 really responsive contacts. but the barrier is only bringing them to svc. but let that not be a problem, cause i can see their eagerness in christ! really hope to bring more ppl into god's sheep pen. coming back soon!

hmm... actually i have nth to post.. yar, so let me post bout on wad happened on saturday.

went to service wif the p6es n wif ting xi n zhi ping. i was quite happy to see them making the effort to be on time. on the wae saw other church ppl. then aft praise n worship, rebeca stood there. not budging. i was shocked, then i dunno wad to do. then zhi ying came to the rescue! she spoke to reb, then carmen came, wanting to bring her out. then she finally sat down. the altar call started already. so its like the whole church was stunned. so she sat down, the ppl around her asked her wad happend and stuff. jus hope that she will be alrite:) learnt to depend on the holy spirit more day by day and walk with him, be led by him n listen to him more. had core team meet later on. till 7 plus. then went wif my sis to tis country club wif my family.although there are man facilities over there, but i was not intrested at all. so i went to their sutdy room n went through the sermon, read the bible.. frm 8 to 2am in the morn. so tiring... tats all. obviously i did not enjoy my time at the country club. almost freaking off, so then i read my bible to calm my mind. its always his word that i can listen to n follow it at any time of the day1

hmm.. went out wif reb n pear to causeway to buy some hip hop stuff for the dance. pear brought $50 reb brought $100 n me, miserabaly, brought $14 only..yar, so i told them wad kind of clothes to buy tat is better for dancing n stuff. but i had alot of 'lobang' haha. i lent belt frm jogina n cap frm carmen. i bought a necklace oso. then went to my grandfather's bdae party. at little india??!! yar.. my dad bought a digital camera for my sis n i (yes!) but quite guilty actually, for spending so much of his money:( god!!!! pls help me control my temper more... logging off!

psle finally ended. i always thought aft that exam, we can play till mad... but it is even sian-ner now. went to sentosa wif the whole p6. and irritatingly, the teachers went too.(of course they went.) so we jus went there, on the way in the bus, rachel n i were both crapping, laughing uncontrolably at stupid things ppl around n cracking silly jokes. then reached there le.. it was sian. rach n i walked around. then crossed the bridge to the two 'towers' there. the guys were there. so we took pictures of each other. then other class de ppl came up. then we went down. we weren't supposed to go into the water.. its sutpid, why go to sentosa when we cant even go in the water? but we just dun care lor. ran into the water then kena splashed by both the guys n gals. play play play. then teacher came to chase us out of the water for 4 times then we reluctantly walked out of the water. then bathed. then go home. on the bus everyone was tired le. but aft tat i stil hav sheperding. yar... went to coffee bean. then went home... one word for todae---sian