i hope i could be at different places at the same time.
theres church, dance, school, friends, family. Im trying to balance everything and sadly, its impossible. there is a possibility of disappointing some people somehow along the way. if not this time round, then the next. we only can choose which one we want to focus on time to time. pleasing everyone would kill you inside, and tear you apart.
God, sorry to complain to you again, but damn, I really wanna do many things. No one freaking cares in the lg. even if there are those who cares, who would encourage them to initiate, to have fun, to hang out? screwed shit. i dont feel my leader is leading the group somewhere, or bringing growth to anyone. tertiary has much more potential than it thinks it has. Its shortchanging itself and your church.
dance has been more of a burden now. how i wish i could just dance all day. but right now it is taking away my time and its killing me inside while i dance. i wanna improve, Lord, help me gain a new perspective of dancing all over again.
Never had time for my school friends, i feel guilty for always rushing off and not spending enough time to even build a friendship. school work isnt tough, its the enormity of all the things aded up tgh that makes me scream inside.
had been spending a lot of time with friends in church. and had to disappoint them recently. God, its tough to do so. but this is the truth of the situation. i couldn't always set my time out for them
my family has been my greatest blessing, knowing i have a home to go to is not to be taken for granted. i wanna spend more time with them, know them more, like they are really family, not strangers living under one roof. I wanna be there with them and for them more.
so little time. so many people. so many things i wanna do. God, when would i get out of this vicious cycle?
a post done with much thoughts, little consideration.
