Sunday, April 27, 2008 ▪ 6:10 AM
God is faithful :)
during worship, scenes of me when i first stepped into church till now
came flooding into my mind.
and i realised how faithful God is all along.
when He promised "never will i leave you, never will i forsake you"
He meant it. God has never went back on His words.
the flashback was enough to drown me with tears.
thank you God. without you, im nothing now.
NIKE meet at istana.
i admit i didnt go with an expectant heart,
with a just-another-meeting kinda attitude.
but God proved me wrong.
those who were there know fully well what im talking about.
just wanna thank joyce, though it was juat another meeting, just another teaching,
i can sense the hearts of the ppl changed,
the spirits of the ppl refreshed,
and because of that, that meeting was not just-another-meeting.
i wanna thank you for leading such an examplary life,
one that makes ppl wanna follow.:)
aft that, went to orchid country club to have BBQ with my cousins.
played pool till 12plus am :)
went home and talked to God, His voice accompanied me to sleep:)
J-O-Y that is down in my heart.
God, i wanna have rest in the midst of stress.
joy in the midst of storms
peace in the midst of problems.
im not gonna run away from God's tough love.
the heart of the problem is the problem of the heart:)
we wanna change change change in order to grow grow grow in quality and quantity!!!!
Friday, April 25, 2008 ▪ 6:01 AM
i will lift my eyes- Bebo NormanGod, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
'Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
'Cause you fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs you now.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 ▪ 11:27 PM
many times i act like i dont mind,many times i act as if it doesnt bother me.many times your words hurt me,but many times i chose to conceal my feelingsmany times i just cant express how i feelmany times i feel no one understands at allbut EVERYTIME, i know God cares, and God's there.God never said that this was gonna be a sprint,neither did He say it was gonna be an easy journey.i know this hurdle is gonna be a tough one there's nothing i can do but to hold on to God for the victory that is awaiting.many ppl come to me and say that i have so many church stuff,how to do well for exams?i mean, ya, its true. it seems i cant do much.but HERE i wanna declare "欣如不会很聪明， 不会很厉害。欣如只是一个普通的人"i have my limitations, i have my faults, i have my weaknesses,but i have a limitless God, i have a God of possibilities, i have a perfect God thats worthy of my praise,worthy of my worship, worthy of my reliance, worthy of my all.IM NOT LOSING OUT.ppl, hear this, im Not losing out.Dear Satan, you are so gonna get it from me. on your top 10 wanted list, xinru
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 ▪ 7:16 AM
ok, i've decided to blog aft much procrastination and reasons i give myself for not blogging.
before i rant on, i wanna blog bout my blessing!
i only have $5 ytd to last for 2 meals. had netball on mon, and fasting from 12 to 5pm.
super hungry. and i had no money left to top up my ez-link if i eat.
but i chose to eat. haha. cant take it. so there was $o in my pocket, and i prayed "God, i know you'll provide" and,.... my history teacher looked for me and returned me $5, cause i didnt go for the history field trip. and its exactly $5! just enough for me to top up my card. yea, God is my provider!
ok, short updates. :)
skipping on suns rocks, and performance is coming up
netball ytd made me pespire like it was raining
dance just now aft Adidas made me hyped up till now, and performance is coming up too:)
sat chats with joan back home aft meetings are really nice.
AND
CLM on sat "hit me like a truck"
just to quote what ps shirley said on sat
"if i cant be a politician, a singer, a famous actor, a businessman, at LEAST, let me be their shepherd"
i have a dream, a huge dream for God.
one day after i have graduated from CCHY, and step into the school again,
i wanna see a growing community, seeds the CCHY cg is now planting and sowing on grow.
a community that shines of God's names wherever they go, when ppl think about spirit, the first person they think of is the ppl in HOPE. ppl singing praises wherever they go.
generation to generation,
glory to glory.
God, you provide.
Friday, April 04, 2008 ▪ 8:02 AM
LIFESONG_casting crowns
Empty hands held high
Such small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight
May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I wanna sign Your name at the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You
Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet
the best day and the worst.great:)chiong-ed down to AMK hub after shepherding my sheep aft sch.finally caught Step Up 2 with the dance team!yea, and because i've been waiting for this day,it seems the whole world has already watched it except me.and it really disturbing.BUT. but but but...it was a BLAST! definitely much better than the first production.though i like Channing Tatum much more than this main lead.aft which, we took photos at the stairs, cause we got chased.take a look at the dance blog if you want to:)there are many photos not posted. and those that aren't posted are ultra hilarious.sperated with Christine( tgh with jiali ' denise and cher) at AMK mrt...gave Christine a BIG hug before leaving.felt like crying then, but held on to my tears.im already missing you Christine!jiayou for the 6mths in america.not that plesant:(confirmation was not a least bit pleasing...pulled my hair, clentched my fists and banged the table.serious. but i know God is the one who gives and takes away.ok, 3 sec of discouragements is over."i will still choose to listen and believe the voice of Truth"
