another angry post.
我为这些身命感到不值。
looking across North, i felt a sense of discontent.
i haven't had this kind of strong discontent for a long time. and i know this time it isn't only a feeling.

How much effort did people put in to call you for service? to "plead you" to come so that you can come and know the true meaning to life?
How much effort did people who brought you to church make when they went around for house visitations under the hot sun?
How much effort did people put in to share the bridge diagram to you again and again just that you will come to realise how great their God is and that He's waiting for you?
How much effort did the person ,you feel irritated by, make every saturday to wait for you under your house just to make sure you dont miss out on God's presence and God's word?
How much effort did the person who took care of you put in when he/she travels down from wherever they are to wherever you stay everyday just to meet you and make sure you are walking right with God?
How much effort? How much effort?

and all that we did? all we did was to make that effort stop right HERE.

no more of CAREgroup
no more of genuine love and concern
no more of sacrifices
no more of being a community
we wait to be loved, wait to be served, wait for people to bless us, wait for something to be done.
it seems like we dont care anymore.
we dont care bout the people who are lost in this messy world we live in.
we forgotten how we were welcomed into the first ever caregroup we went, we forgotten how it feels to bless others, we forgotten that the greatest story of love doesn't stop HERE. No, it can't stop at us. it shouldn't stop at us. it mustn't stop HERE.


the world is for us to win. God is waiting for your move to turn this world upside down.
at the same time, the devil is ready to pounce on you when you do that.
i dont know bout you, but Im not gonna sit here and wait till Jesus comes back.
i may not be sure of my plans, my steps to success, but i wanna do something for Jesus. one thing for sure, it's much better than sitting on the couch.

out with christine yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my first "shopping spree" for the year.
dont know how many donkey years have i not stepped out of my tiny little world to hit the streets. i realised many things have changed. heeren is not as crowded as it used to be. and in my entire life, i went far east only thrice. but no matter what, i wanna THANK YOU CHRISTINE! for initiating this shopping spree for me! hahaha. go get your pay soon(: and i'll see you in your new stuff in due time. (yes, that BLUE BAG).
though we didnt talk much, i really appreciate your presence and enjoyed the time.