Thursday, April 23, 2009 ▪ 11:57 PM

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
And she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to jesus, and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh, but most all for...
Butterfly kisses after bed time prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony daddy;
its my first ride I know the cake looks funny daddy
But I sure tried
Oh with all that I've done wrong I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning
And butterfly kisses at night
Sweet sixteen today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman; the other part girl
To perfume and make up
From ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember...
Butterfly kisses after bed time prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you daddy
But if you don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time
Oh with all that I've done wrong I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning
And butterfly kisses at night
All the precious time
Oh, like the wind the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away
Standing in the bride room just staring at her
She asked me what I'm thinking
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl
She leaned over; gave me...
Butterfly kisses with her mama there
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the aisle daddy; it's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddy don't cry
Oh with all that I've done wrong I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning
And butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more
Man, this is what love is I know I've gotta let her go
But I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning
And butterfly kisses...

this post is dedicated to Rachel Lim Zhi Yan of CCHY sec3E
i dont even know if you would ever see this.
just wanna say i miss those times i walked home together with you everyday.
crunching the dried leaves beneath our feet with every step we take.
munching the curry puffs we got from the back gate of sps.
lets take time out one day(: just to talk. i mean it.(:
Monday, April 13, 2009 ▪ 8:29 AM

dearestdearest mighty, i will miss you. because we've grown as a team. because we've experienced crazy things together. cause we've laughed together. cause we've flared up at each other before. cause we've learnt to understand. cause we've learnt to be tolerant. cause we've became more matured. cause we've (literally)ran together. cause we've all panted, pulled and stretched, tried and tested, yet we've not given up yet.
we have yet did a full mini service together, we have yet gone to ben and jerry's for the 101th time, we have yet created out OWN NORTHBD BAND, we have yet experienced our 2nd camp together. but i wanna thank every single one of you for making a great impact in my life. serving God has never been as "roller-coaster-y"before.
not to forget DAVID HOE TECK CHYE
there's no MIGHTY without you. thank you or making every moment memorable. and investing in each and everyone of our lives. indeed, you're one leader i'll remember for long.
The rest, shall be written(:
THANKFUL.
12APRIL2009.
it wasn't a much needed talk. but somehow i just asked joan out aft easter service. and it came as a surprise as she spontaneously agreed.
headed to Starbucks(again) and found her in a corner with a book. we started chatting bout our day. but as always, her listening ear is timely. haha. yes, thank God for you joanhoe.
13APRIL2009. today.
typical day aft school at BK. but during dinnertime i had a partial debate and discussion at yoshinoya with some others. longlong since i've taken time to speak and listen to other people's views on leadership. it turned out to be a really fruitful one.(: i really enjoyed my day.
thankyou jesus.
you made my day!
Thursday, April 02, 2009 ▪ 3:11 AM
a homework from my english teacher, a letter to my friend.
(some parts are changed so the compo can have more expressions)
to my soulmate, my bestest listener, my friend,
joan hoe
here's how it goes
"so how are you doing now?"
then began the thee hour long talk we had at Starbucks. wearing a bark blue wollen shirt with flip flops and her trademark brown leather bag, joan was dressed casually with her hair loosely tied back, strands of frayed hair nicely falling by the frame of her face. we were dressed similarly, just that i had all my hair down, with a brown thick-width hairband to keep my fringe in place.
as we entered Starbucks, we can hear the clatter of the ceramic glasses and the small talks, soft discussions over laptops and the coffee table. we found seats available, rushed over, threw our bags on the comfy armrests and slumped heavily into the seats as we heaved a sigh at the same time. we noticed that, and grinned. joan got up on her feet and offered to buy me a drink. she emerged back with two cups of mocha frappucino in her hands. the aroma of coffee beans drifted to my nose as i brought the drink towards my lips to take a sip. it has been long since we have done this, taking time out of our busy schedules to talk about just anything over a cup of coffee, ignoring the busy business crowds and the quick-paced footsteps in the mall.
it was not difficult to get started. we went on and on, pouring over lives to each other, filling in what we have done for the past few months. the coffee in the cup was quickly reducing as we half chatted and half debated about many topics and people that concerned us. but more than just that, we spoke of how we felt, expressed our thoughts and feelings freely, knowing that she will understand what we really mean without having to worry about the usage of words or the blunt phrasing of the statements we make.
the ice in the cup was melting. as i held up my mocha frappucino to finish off my last few sips of coffee, i noticed water rings on the table where the cup is. sucking up the little remainings of the coffee with my straw produced a wierd sound which made joan giggle. i gave her a wide grin, satisfied with the treat i had just given myself, and continued sharing.
as i shaed my struggles, she was more than attentive, nodding her head, dropping words like "yea, i understand..." at times. her gentle tone as she speaks assured me that the words she said were not pretense, but rather out of love and concern. at that moment i felt as if a burdern lifted from my shoulders. though the problems may not be resolved yet, but entrusting them to a loved one really helps. joan began sharing hers too. i did the same, assuring her that i am with her supporting her eventhough i cannot be physically there for her. it was getting late and the crowds in starbucks were starting to disappear. i let down my hair band and ruffled my hair, making my scalp feel more relaxed. we continued chatting until it was too late for us not to head home.
before we parted ways, we have each other a big bear hug, whispering words of encouragement and adding strength to each other.
the smell of coffee beans. the comfort of the armrest. the taste of mocha frappucino that is still lingering in my mouth. the words spoken. the assurance. i will never forget. thankyoujoan.